Incredible. I am on the verge myself. Not being able to pay next month's rent looking for something to pawn or sell meanwhile friends are succeeding in their careers while I am hanging on a string starting my own production studio. But I dare not tell them nor my mother or father or they will be more likely to discourage me and tell me to get a "real" job. I am the crazy one after all.... I mean I am the one who gave up a successful career (that drove me bonkers) to go back to school and take up writing, directing, special effects and acting. Only to give up everything in the process except now I feel sane! Is that weird? I love reading this and appreciate hearing your story. Love it!!