Filmmaking / Directing : Self Doubt by Rob Kelly

Rob Kelly

Self Doubt

First post. Something that has been on my mind for a while. Just wondering do any successful people go through this: I've always felt I was a strong director. Always felt I had talent enough to at least make an award winning short film and go on from there. I know where I went wrong in the past; the writing stage. I've rectified that with scouring the writing world for 2 years and found 2 fantastic scripts.. but thats neither here nor there. Because I haven't got to the level I was hoping to be after 20 odd years, and watched my contemporaries sail ahead, I tend to think well 'you're just not good enough'. I then think well I've learned from this mistake and this mistake so next time.. yet the contemporaries seem not to make the mistakes and push on ahead. So again.. maybe not good enough. Gonna keep on truckin'. Got a new found desire to be the best I can be creatively. But is anyone in the same boat, or been on that boat and been successful? Be interesting to hear your thoughts and stories.

Rafael Pinero

Hey Rob, I totally understand you, I feel like that almost every day and like you said I also know where I made a mistake and I know that I won't make that mistake again, but this feeling also makes you doubt if you'll ever have the same energy you had before to make anew film. I used to be a doer and not a talker, but I don't know anymore, everything just seems more difficult to achieve, so I don't know what advice I can give you about this, but it is an awful feeling. Maybe someone else can cheer us up.

Rafael Pinero

I do know one thing though, I'm not giving up, we need to focus.

Rob Kelly

Yeh its disheartening but I thunk grit and persistence will get us there. I've also had a new found way of thinking about a directing career in a funding sense..in mean it's in out own hands. relying on commissions etc you could be 80 before anyone gives you the nod. I'm gonna knuckle down for 4 or 5 months, make about 10k and make my film. simple ;)

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