Hello, fellow players!
Actors, a new year is almost upon us, and our years, well, they don't seem to feel or move like other people's.
Audition...maybe a callback?...the void...then, out of nowhere, the Big Gig.
I've learned so much this year, having worked, "not a lot", in maybe the quantifying mind most people have. But I acted in an indie film shot in New Mexico, "Babybacks", and I walked the red carpet premiere of two films I acted in, shot in 2022 and 2023, "Delta County", and "Do No Harm", respectfully.
And...is that it?
Lol, that's what I was thinking before I learned, and am living life, like I am now. Following the clues the acting path is leaving me. Every audition, is a clue. What was it for, what type of character, did you like it, what did it feel like?
Then...the amazing high, you got a callback! Woohoo!!!! Did you do the same thing, were you nervous, did you feel like you had to impress someone, did you make it "perfect"?
And...if you don't hear back, which is most of the time what happens...the void...did you beat yourself up? Did you call yourself nasty names in your head? Did you compare yourself to other people out there, "making it"?
You're not alone. Been there, done that. Rinse, wash, repeat.
But, this year I allowed myself to...just flow, for a teeny tiny bit. I let go of the things I cannot control, and, I listened to my heart speaking to me, in between the auditions I didn't enjoy, and the callbacks I thought I should be getting.
"This role isn't the role you dream of...wait for it...it's coming..."
I allowed myself to dream again. I imagine the roles I do want to play, the females I want to bring to the world, the humans I want to being voice to, the women I want the world to see, and feel. Moms, immigrants, leaders, revolutionaries, femme fatales, spies, the women I feel I already am, somehow.
Suddenly, as I allow myself to be in joy, and happiness, and relax, there it comes...the Big Gig...and all we had to do, was just...believe, feel, and be.
So, as we close out 2026, what did your auditions feel like? How did the void affect you? How would it be, if instead of the fear of not being enough, you wrote down all the amazing things that make you perfect, for the roles you truly want to play? Have you ever written a list of the stories and roles you would love to be a part of?
Happy Holidays to All, and remember...Players...Play: )
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Congratulations on the role in Babybacks and all your success, Juliana Philippi! Hope you have more next year! Happy Holidays!
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Maurice Vaughan Thank you so much!!! Yes, I'm working more, because I love and know myself , and am open,: ) And happy, happy holidays to you too. I appreciate always your support and encouragement, it's amazing how much, just a tiny bit of "you got it" makes a huge difference.
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You're welcome, Juliana Philippi. Thanks. I appreciate your support and encouragement too. You're right. It's amazing how much, just a tiny bit of "you got it" makes a huge difference, especially on rough days.
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congratulations Juliana Philippi , you are an amazing lady, I love the spirits, each and every teeny tiny bit is giving the supports and making you road map for the dream role. Hurdles are part of a journey, but our perspective help us to overcome every hurdles. Go girl it's your time to shine and learn, I wish you a very happy holiday and good lucks ahead of journey. happy holidays.
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This is great question Juliana Philippi and I wanted to follow it because although I'm doing voice acting as well, my primary focus has been writing. Short answer is that I stay busy and create through other means. Aside from my day job, I'm either polishing a script, creating a pitch deck or playing the piano. I've done the latter whenever there's a slow period and the void tries to pull me down. Much like the image you used, it's much about believing that you are in the lane of your design. This is where I feel the most free and poured out. Congratulations on what you've accomplished so far friend. There is so much more to come. It's inevitable.
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DJ Gautam DJ, thanks so much! Smiling so big right now. It's all about perspective, absolutely right, spot on my friend. Happy Holidays to you too, and an amazing 2026 and journey to you as well! Every hurdle, is teaching us, and will lift us higher as we go.
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Leonardo Ramirez Absolutely Leonardo, it's multi-artsying, lol. Creating in many forms. The void comes up when you wallow, and my gosh, the times I could count when I wallowed…and them so, lol! But, as I keep on walking, creating, I grow, as an actress in this case (also a screenwriter, lol). And, it's not us pursuing a goal…the stories, the roles, the roles, begin to pursue us :) Thank you for your kind words, and encouragement, this is just a beginning.
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It absolutely is just the beginning Juliana Philippi!