Hello to everyone who will see and/or read this post. I'm new to this site, and I think it's very interesting so far. I'm a high school student (I'm I too young to join this website?) and I have worked on film making for a few years now. I love almost everything to do with it. I have a good number of semi-satisfied projects done, including my first short film made recently, and even more failed projects. I studied and worked on a lot of aspects of the process of making a short films, and I took it very seriously in the past. Possibly too seriously, since I hit a few to a couple of breaking points if you wish to call it that. After that I before relax more and trying to find a balance of how much should I work on film making, but I still battle with the same question almost everyday, and that is a film making career, job, whatever you what to call it, right for me? Before you start writing how hard it is to be a independent film maker, I've done my research on this with many sources mixed in with my own and close one's ideas, philosophy, opinions, etc. Yes, it is hard. Almost seems like fairy tale at times. I get really heartsick and bitter sometimes when tackling this question. I bring myself down with my lack of confidence, anger, and sadness. It's a mess. I've been finding ways to cope or avoid them, but they will come back if don't at least have some sort of guidance or whatnot. Even if it's a bit. I have read a great book called "How to Find Fulfilling Work" by Roman Krznaric, and it's probably the most useful thing I read so in my life, and biggest ways to find that "Fulfilling Work," is to experiment and actually try a job. I have only worked with a couple of friends on these film projects, so it's pretty much just a hobby and nothing as serious making a living as a independent film maker (if that's even possible). I'm pretty much alone with this question since none of my friends are as serious as me about film making and they just want to help/support my projects, which I'm very thankful for, but this question/struggle is still unresolved, and perhaps it will always be. If anyone has some sort of experience on film making, and would like to voice out their film making advice, stories, goals, etc. I'll gladly listen. I don't expect for anyone to solve my issue, but I will be very grateful for any shed of light in that dark tunnel of mine. And please, I prefer you don't say stuff like "follow your dreams," or "never give up." That just makes me feel bad and guilty about myself most of the time, but I shouldn't dictate people in how they talk to me. That just makes it worse. So....yeah...if you read this then thanks, and say something if you wish.