I am a human living in this life, in this world, in these times. I think that one of the most beautiful things in life is this consciousness, this awareness, when you realize that you exist and you start asking questions about all the things; when you don't believe things just because someone said or you read somewhere; when you are honestly searching for the truth - the truth that will take you out from the darkness you live in, the truth that will give you answers about who you are, what you are doing in this world, what is the meaning of this life, what to do next.
I said that I will make a short movie with ideas like this, but I don't have the answers for these questions. I waited, I waited, and I still don't have the answer and I don't see the movie..I feel in a way that the movie is somewhere, maybe close to me, but I don't have it. Some people say "don't wait, start writing and things will come", but I don't feel that way.
I want to bring to movies things that I saw in movies that I like, but I want to bring also other beautiful things that weren't shown.
I said that maybe first I should be an actor (because I want to tell stories as an actor too) in other movies..working and talking with other filmmakers maybe the answers for the movies I want to make will come.
I started to make self-shots and self-tapes and I tried to show in them who I am, to be myself. Maybe some casting directors, directors, actors or other people would see me and say "I want to work with this person" if they think that we have things in common or I am right for a movie. I don't know..
I can say I know things about filmmaking. I listened to audio commentary tracks on movies, I watched "making of" documentaries, I read books, I listened or I watched some masterclasses, I learned also from social media and I am still learning things.
I have been working in a factory for some years and I don't know how to escape from there. I could have taken other job, maybe I could have had a more comfortable job, but then I would keep doing things that don't interest me. The only thing that makes sense to me I think is making movies, but not making movies just for the sake of making movies and acting just for the sake of acting. I want to be part of stories that I am interested in, movies that I like to see or movies that I would like to see, movies that give answers to some of our questions, movies that put questions to some things, movies that show truths about who we are and what we are doing in this world. (something like that)