I was simply just going to ask the question, but I feel like really letting a lot out and getting deep into this question. I hope you don't mind, and I appreciate the time anyone takes to read it. I spent the last 27 years daydreaming about being an Actress. Constantly watching, being around, and being knowledgeable about the movie world. Buying and saving magazines/articles, reading books, etc. I still have said articles and such, I just always felt like it was important to hold onto them and the dream. Idolizing and wanting to be like these people (in a healthy way). Using them, their stories and whatnot to help improve my own life kind of deal. Dreaming about winning Oscars, Golden Globes, etc. My family and I used to film sketches (much like SNL). I was asked to be in 2 local commercials. I'm asked on the daily if I'm an Actress or Model. It gets annoying though because I put modeling in my past, and acting was just still a dream (until now). Being asked causes me to feel depressed, like I'm not doing the right thing and I should pursue one or both of those careers. Deep down, I've always wanted to. Before all of this, and before I found confidence and became "pretty" lol...I went through a lot of not so great things. I was heavily bullied for the entire duration of school in general. That led to and endless amount of years with problem after problem (things you find in Psychology texts books). I never fit in with "normal every day people." I still don't. I was always considered over-dramatic, passionate, and destined for something other than a cop/lawyer/nurse type of job. I didn't do very well in school, but I kicked butt on everything Writing related and Psychology related. I've been writing since the 2nd grade. I combined the passion of wanting to Act with my Writing ability. I blend in my love for Psychology into this as well. I was told that I am able to create amazing characters because of it, which makes me feel like I'd understand a lot of roles, and that I would be able to play a lot of roles. For the past 6 years, I've been Screenwriting. I ADORE it, and I do feel like it's something I'll do well in (as long as I keep putting in the work). BUT...I still feel like something is missing. I thought maybe it was because I am single, but I don't think it's that. I just feel like I should still pursue acting. I feel like that still might be something that I will actually do well in, and something that I was made for. When I close my eyes and think deeply about me being an Actress...it just feels so right. I feel whole again...like I'm where I should be almost. I feel that way about writing too, but JUST writing might not be enough for my movie reel on roids, forever daydreaming brain lol I tend to mesh well with actors, actresses, and wrestlers as well. They respect the hell out of me (and I do them). I fit in so well with them (similar mind-sets, similar stories, etc). I consider a lot of wrestlers and some actors my extended family, and they feel the same. Outside of them, I feel like such an outcast, so much so that I didn't even like myself for a longgggg time because of the way others looked at me, and yeah... I guess I have some sort of resume started with the 2 commercials, but it's literally like seconds long. I feel like I'm walking into a job without a resume, and we all know how hard that can be in general. So, my question is...how do I begin? I'm not a total beginner. I signed up with Backstage. I talk to actors every single day. I've done a ton of research over the years. I network my butt off on Twitter as much as I possibly can in a day (for writing). I used to try to find auditions, etc. I went to a couple, but they were things I knew I wouldn't get. One audition asked for 50's look, and preferred an accent....and not my New York kind haha. I just don't want anxiety and depression to keep keeping me away from this anymore. I feel like I kept using those as an excuse to NOT try harder, and to not really pursue it. Fear paralyzed me for some time. I just don't want to regret not doing it, especially since the urge, want, need is always present and never goes away. I'm in a transition of sorts at the moment. I took 6 months off from a 9-5 to write, to work on career goals, and to get my mind and everything on the right path. I'm applying for a new 9-5 tonight. Kennel job, working with animals is another passion of mine. I hope I get it, I could use the income again! My friend just posted on his Facebook that it took him 27 years to finally pursue Wrestling. I guess maybe, he really woke me up a little bit. I mean, I'm on this path of straightening out my life career-wise, so this question was bound to come up very soon either way. Do I sound like I'm one of those people who should really take this want seriously and go for it? I feel like I should, I feel like I won't ever feel right if I don't do it.