Hello, fellow players!
Actors, a new year is almost upon us, and our years, well, they don't seem to feel or move like other people's.
Audition...maybe a callback?...the void...then, out of nowhere, the Big Gig.
I've learned so much this year, having worked, "not a lot", in maybe the quantifying mind most people have. But I acted in an indie film shot in New Mexico, "Babybacks", and I walked the red carpet premiere of two films I acted in, shot in 2022 and 2023, "Delta County", and "Do No Harm", respectfully.
And...is that it?
Lol, that's what I was thinking before I learned, and am living life, like I am now. Following the clues the acting path is leaving me. Every audition, is a clue. What was it for, what type of character, did you like it, what did it feel like?
Then...the amazing high, you got a callback! Woohoo!!!! Did you do the same thing, were you nervous, did you feel like you had to impress someone, did you make it "perfect"?
And...if you don't hear back, which is most of the time what happens...the void...did you beat yourself up? Did you call yourself nasty names in your head? Did you compare yourself to other people out there, "making it"?
You're not alone. Been there, done that. Rinse, wash, repeat.
But, this year I allowed myself to...just flow, for a teeny tiny bit. I let go of the things I cannot control, and, I listened to my heart speaking to me, in between the auditions I didn't enjoy, and the callbacks I thought I should be getting.
"This role isn't the role you dream of...wait for it...it's coming..."
I allowed myself to dream again. I imagine the roles I do want to play, the females I want to bring to the world, the humans I want to being voice to, the women I want the world to see, and feel. Moms, immigrants, leaders, revolutionaries, femme fatales, spies, the women I feel I already am, somehow.
Suddenly, as I allow myself to be in joy, and happiness, and relax, there it comes...the Big Gig...and all we had to do, was just...believe, feel, and be.
So, as we close out 2026, what did your auditions feel like? How did the void affect you? How would it be, if instead of the fear of not being enough, you wrote down all the amazing things that make you perfect, for the roles you truly want to play? Have you ever written a list of the stories and roles you would love to be a part of?
Happy Holidays to All, and remember...Players...Play: )
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Haley Mary That's so lovely, singing and music are a great part of acting, and film, all stories. Music is the heartbeat without words. And I totally relate, coming home from school, singing, writing,...
Expand commentHaley Mary That's so lovely, singing and music are a great part of acting, and film, all stories. Music is the heartbeat without words. And I totally relate, coming home from school, singing, writing, and somehow we just keep going. And The Little Mermaid!!!! Singing, dreaming, being herself. Thanks for sharing Haley, I love that.
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My reason for being an actor is not so nice and fluffy. The short answer is, I started acting out stories with my stuffed animals to escape the terror that was my homelife. I loved to pretend I was an...
Expand commentMy reason for being an actor is not so nice and fluffy. The short answer is, I started acting out stories with my stuffed animals to escape the terror that was my homelife. I loved to pretend I was anywhere else. I would get my Barbies and act out characters from my favorite shows, Dukes of Hazzard and the ATeam. The first time I was onstage in 6th grade, I felt so free. I could really be another person. The pumping of the adrenaline, the applause, people telling me I was great. So I keep doing it. Being onstage I guess is my safe space.
Though now that I am middle aged and had a lot of therapy, I feel free to be Suzanne Bronson. I love acting because it forces you to be fully present and connected to another human being. Acting is life.
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Juliana Philippi it bites us all doesn't it? Lol!
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Brandon Keeton Absolutely!!!
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Suzanne Bronson Thank you, thank you so much, for having shared your why. That's amazing Suzanne, that's beautiful, and yes, you are free to BE, and with that freedom, and acceptance, acting becomes m...
Expand commentSuzanne Bronson Thank you, thank you so much, for having shared your why. That's amazing Suzanne, that's beautiful, and yes, you are free to BE, and with that freedom, and acceptance, acting becomes more amazing and fulfilling, giving ourselves over to stories, with that innate capacity to share and feel. I love that, that's amazing Suzanne.